What have I been doing w my life?

Some Reflection

I’ve been thinking recently, and with all the shit going on in my life, I think I’ve lwk kinda lost the plot.

My life is so boring rn. I wake up, study a bit, work on a few projects, make a few PRs, play some badminton, and go to bed. Then I do the exact same thing the next day. And the next. It’s just the same repetitive work every day.

Like i mean thats not inherently bad, and ik im coming from a place of insane privilege to be saying that, but like ugh. Maybe its cuz everything i do is strictly black or white. Math problems either have an answer or dont. a program either works or it doesnt. i shd think more abt stuff in the grey maybe that would get me out of my slump.

hopefully one day i get orz enough to be able to answer more abstract questions. philo seems interesting. may pick it up in college. But i gotta get into college first. College sounds so fun, but the admissions process looks like a pain. I gotta endure that next year. But for rn i gotta lock in and get usaco plat this season - thats lwk my only goal. And maybe amc12 dhr. idk anymore tho since the amc changes happened theyre prob gonna make it way harder. thats it for now ig i rlly am dragging this. i also got a new badminton racket its rlly cool. i feel strong

hopefulyl this re ignites some memories, abhinav-from-the-future!